parcel of life;

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 07:52:23 GMT

Ain't no sunshine;

(: His amazing grace

Tue, 20 Oct 2009 15:01:02 GMT

triple nine

Wed, 09 Sep 2009 14:29:39 GMT

:) today's such a beautiful date to remember, 090909. Just happened to hear the news on the number of couples getting hitched on this special day. But to me, as memorable and easily remembered as this date is, it'll be common in the near future. Imagine knowing 300plus people having the same anniversary as you... It won't be special anymore by then. So, the moral of the story for myself, would be getting married on a not-so-memorable day. ha!

Also, in this beautiful date, it also marks my 3rd birthday spiritually :)

Jesus, light my way;

once in a blue moon

Wed, 19 Aug 2009 16:59:30 GMT

(shengjia, it's no longer "ready, yet not prepared;" that you see now ;) something new for you to read. heehee.)

the first half of the month august has just passed, with school term coming to an end, birthdays, assessment done, dropping of my purse, and... my update. Man, it has been ages since you last seen my update. To be frank, it feels rather weird to be back here once again. Who knows when I will come back to this page again, maybe in the year 2010?... ha.

In just 6 months' time, I will bid my tertiary education goodbye. Hmmmm, it feels really weird to think about it. What should I do when I graduate? Be in the workforce or continue studying? But, with the results of mine, I suppose it's not good enough for University..

met up with my dear friend this afternoon. I can say it was really awesome to be able to meet up and catch up a little, given our busy and hectic schedules. Reminiscing about the old secondary days, and I noticed the change in us and that our friendship is getting to the next level which I am really glad and thankful of :)

til next time, see you! :)

the call that's left unanswered;

two, and not one.

Fri, 08 May 2009 14:37:15 GMT

ready, yet not prepared;
seen and heard, yet one sided;
moving vehicle, yet stationary;
open, yet locked;
gone, yet persevere;
easy, yet difficult;
amazing, yet confusing;

two-sided perspective;

words are just like daggers

Mon, 04 May 2009 19:26:37 GMT

Keep in mind, someone at the corner remembers clearly of the spoken words.

:)

Fri, 17 Apr 2009 19:03:06 GMT

There was a village, where people co-existed rather peacefully.

One day, a lion appeared out of no where, prowling silently. The villagers spotted the lion. Some just stood and looked at the lion, saying to each other, "wah, the stripes so beautiful...". And they agreed with each other. Needless to say, the lion pounced on them, without knowing what hit them.

A number of them stood there and scream their lungs out. "Arrgh, Lion, Help! Help!" Their legs refusing to budge. The lion pounced on them, killing them with a swipe of its paw.

Many villagers came out with their pots and pans, soup ladles, garden rakes, and such. The lion overpowered them in an instant, all shared the same sad fate.

A few villagers came out with their machetes, or parangs so to speak. They swing it at the lion in an attempt to wound it, they succeeded. But the lion, being agile, manoeuvred swiftly and attacked them from behind. Pouncing on them, crushing them with its weight.

In the middle of the village, there was a sniper charged with the security of the village. He spots the lion far away from his command post, aims and shoots. Killing the lion before it approached the centre of the village.

----

The lion represents sin.

People enjoy, revel in sin. Not knowing of the danger, thinking it is fine. Not knowing what happen only till something happens. Usually when it happens, it is already too late. Sin does not come bearing fangs, or with a sticker on its head saying "I am sin, run away". It comes unexpected, under the disguise of good intentions, with no signs of danger.

Some recognises sin. But they are trapped by addiction, a lack of will to get out of it. Entrapped by an intangible prison, in various forms from differing sources. They return to sin, trying to run from it, but to no avail. Cries of desperation, lack of hope.

Then there are those who are taught right from wrong, black from white and such. But when met with temptations, sinful desires, their life lessons become similar to that of a futile resistance. Their weapon is that of pots and pans. They put up a fight nonetheless, but they too, get beaten down by the barrages of attacks of sin.

A small group of people, who possesses strong will power. They are able to resist the temptations and desires the devil put forth. But the devil hardly attacks in only one direction, area of our life. There is no such rule as "attack once a day only". We could be struggling with anger, lust, envy, etc putting up a good fight until another situation comes. And another and another. Will power is no longer sufficient to hold us up, we get crushed under the weight of sin, situations we might be in.

The last group of people, are those who abide, live by the word of God. They are able to discern sin under the various facades it hides under, being alert at all times. (1 cor 16 vs 13) Our command post is Jesus Christ, the solid rock on which we firmly stand on. (1 Peter 5 vs 9) On it, sin does not have a hold on us, it shall not reach us. Word of God, is our sniping gun, we do not just wound it, we crucify the sinful nature. (Galatians 5 vs 16 & 24)

The word of God, seeks out sin and destroys sin, before it reaches our inmost being and bearing the fruit of death.

Sometimes, the sin is just too overwhelming, we think how on earth can we possibly get out of it, we feel like we are hitting against an iron wall. Faith in God, Trust in God, Counting on God, are just some of our various ammunitions against the work of the devil.

Sin can be too overwhelming for us, i agree. But i know for a fact, that it will never, ever be overwhelming for God. The devil has many methods to bring us down, but we just need one to bring him down in our lives. God.

Our friends, family, people who do not know the love of God, are those who we are charged with by God to protect, and deliver from the clutches of death.

Being the only sniper can be lonely, I would rather be in a village of snipers, what say you ?

Sun, 29 Mar 2009 13:57:33 GMT

With this, I bid them goodbye. It came to my mind that there will be no more travelling to the east every morning; ice cream, curry puffs and hot dogs; 1 or 2 hours journey (depending which route I go to); jokes; chicken wings at a discounted price; entry to the co-worker restaurant; “database”; building furniture.

Time passes really fast, school’s going to start in a month time. It seems like yesterday that school ends and I’m off for my semester break. Time, will you pass a little slower for me?

the truth and not emotion.

where is the love?

(Ps. I have updated after 3 months. Haha.)

Tue, 30 Dec 2008 07:47:55 GMT

it's 30th December which means, 2008 is coming to an end in hours' time
and... year 2009 is comingggggggg! I'm pretty excited for year 2009! :D

well, December has been a month full of events, which explains the lack of updates.
myhope, YI camp, Christmas bash, Christmas countdown, His birthday =), east coast, meet ups...
they have kept me busy throughout my whole December. Tiring yet enjoyable =)
holiday is ending pretty soon, just 6 more days. 3 weeks more and there comes my break =)

I was at IMM yesterday and was reminded of how silly I used to be.
chasing over a group of people whom don't even know my existence.
standing under the scorching sun for hours just to catch a glimpse of them.
end results: sunburnt + they still don't know my existence! hahahaha!

I thank You for everything, the ups and downs that I had =)
I'm moving on! "Once I was going to and I left." :)

"What a catastrophe it would be if God answered every prayer at the snap of your fingers. Do you know what would happen? God would become your servant, not your master. Suddenly, God would be working for you instead of you working for God. God's delays are not God's denials. God's timing is perfect. Patience is what we need in prayers."
The above statement is very true, isn't it? =)

I have decided I have resolved
To wait upon you Lord

Thank You

Sat, 20 Dec 2008 18:48:26 GMT

Just a little while longer I wanna pray
Can't get You off my mind so I came to say
Thank You Lord just for loving me
Many times as I do forget
Every need that You have met
Oh thank You Lord, I know You're showing me
You are there when I am down and out
You're holding me, Your love is so amazing
Oh it changed me

Here I am with all I am
Raise my hands to worship You
I wanna say thank you, oh thank you
For everything, for who You are
You cover me, You touch my heart
I wanna say thank you

I could have died in my sin but You saved me
Didn't have any hope at all
You gave me peace divine, strength to carry on
I should have been the one to pay
But instead You took my place
My Jesus, words cannot explain
Even though I don't deserve Your love for me
You look beyond my fault and You showed mercy

I wanna say thank you for the sun
I wanna say thank you for the rain
Everything You do is beautiful
I'm so grateful for Your love

beautiful, isn't it? :)

Mon, 10 Nov 2008 14:21:58 GMT

I think my heart stopped beating for a second when i heard the loud crash
and saw my laptop on the... ground but i'm glad it's still functioning well :)

when nothing was said, that's when it hurts the most.

Fri, 31 Oct 2008 17:41:36 GMT

everything's all over now; PP is now history. haha!
I think I did... badly. keep laughing during presentation :S
but judging from the comments given, I think I've passed the module.
thanks to all who had prayed, encouraged and helped me out with the whole thing.
and of course, a big thank you to You :) without You, it's impossible!

well, today's saturday already!!! 1 week break is ending soooooooon :(
this break doesn't seems like a break to me though. busy busy. haha.
a thought struck me earlier; "be the best student i can be in school"
no more slacking and being late for classes, elaine tay.
I aim to be punctual for lessons everyday for the rest of the semester ;)

life; it's all about choices and decisions, isn't it?
we can choose to make things right or allow it to go wrong.
even though things are in bad shape, it's never too late to make things right.
so, never give up but continue to persevere on!

random thought;
am I of no significance in others' eyes? haha.

Mon, 20 Oct 2008 07:28:05 GMT

When I'm in sec 4, people ask me if I'm taking PSLE.
When I'm a tertiary student, people ask me if I'm taking O levels.
Should I be happy or sad that I have grown older in appearance? haha.

4 more days ;)

Thu, 16 Oct 2008 04:30:18 GMT

stepping stone; back to normal mode.
;)

Mon, 13 Oct 2008 02:32:34 GMT

day 2 of week 6 today! it means my break is drawing nearer.
and, it also means that assessment is coming soon!!!
It shall be a God-glorifying moment, I promise :)

Was on the way to school when some flashbacks of my life appear.
One moment, people come and the next moment, they left.
but I am glad and comforted that You came and never leave :)

I foresee the same old thing to happen, yet again.
It's just a matter of time of when it will happen.
give me strength to face and overcome when it happens

started from point A and ended at point A..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MISS YELLOW! :D

Thu, 09 Oct 2008 04:17:34 GMT

night safari yesterday. It was a good experience.
walked pass that place and saw some familiar faces.
pretty cool ;) but, time doesn't allow that to happen eh.

I'm glad and relieved that it didn't happen =)
or else, it will be another awkward situation.
but perhaps, it's no longer what I have anticipated it to be.

typeracer; it seems to be the latest craze in class.
"ta ta ta ta ta..." good practice for the upcoming UTs ;)

moved on;

Fri, 03 Oct 2008 04:00:16 GMT

"Without God, our week is: Mournday, Tearsday, Wasteday, Thirstday, Fightday, Shatterday and Sinday."

same roles + different scenarios;
the outcome still ends up the same.

time time time, it's all what I need now.
maybe one day, I'll gradually accept it. =)

Thu, 25 Sep 2008 07:46:27 GMT

those words left a big impact in my life.
indeed, You never let go of me in every high and every low.
i thank You for being so faithful and also, Your unfailing love.

I want more, more than I had before
would You show me more?

Sun, 07 Sep 2008 10:05:05 GMT

I don't want to be a millionaire anymore;
naked we come; naked we will go as well.

2 days left to last submission, and I'm not done with it yet.
but somehow, i'm feeling different compared to the past.
no anxious feelings but I feel rather peaceful now.
thank you, my King.

I just learnt a valuable lesson from livejournal;
it taught me how to be patient. wahahahaha.

//

hello school, goodbye holidays

Thu, 04 Sep 2008 06:34:37 GMT

i adore wide smiles. =)
it brightens up my days and chase blues away.
give me your widest smile, and it will make me smile.

p/s. can i still introduce myself as seventeen during icebreaker this week? ;)

Thu, 21 Aug 2008 15:01:26 GMT

barely two weeks;
how ironic, elaine tay.

the wall is there waiting for me to bang into it..

Tue, 19 Aug 2008 13:58:57 GMT

met up with that crazy bunch of people today.
lunch, high tea, old maid, laughters, cheap thrills;
and that reminded me of those days in the past.
Miss Lini & Jan yong; I miss you guys :(

9 september 2008;
elaine tay, please keep this date in mind and remember it.
it dwells to me that i'm turning two on 9/9/08 as well.
such a significant day, i'm sure i can remember this day then.
hopefully i do...

everytime i saw a new email in my inbox, i get excited thinking that my mail is replied.
but everytime i get there, disappointment overwhelms me.
because, the reply never comes. oh well, what am i supposed to do now? :(
i don't want to break down when 9 september arrives.

one quarter done; three quarter more to go :D

I won’t give up, won’t give in, never turn away
I’m so crazy for you Jesus

Mon, 11 Aug 2008 07:16:13 GMT

3 days; I say, but close to 3 weeks; I took.
I'm going to close up the gap. haha.
so, I'm here once again.

it's day 3 of week 16, which means the 2nd last day of the semester.
time to take a break from everything. no school, no work, no 1.6k :S

public holiday for national day (tentative) is on for a majority group of students
but the holiday is not for me. hmmm. why ain't I included too? haha!
43 years;

11/8; it reminded me that PP deadline is drawing near. just 29 days away.
oh well, will you reply my email please? no time to waste anymore.
well, i really regretted not starting on it earlier. now it's too late to regret.

it's coming back stronger this time
but I'm not going to get decieved by lies anymore.
I'm walking out of the trap (:

I will not concede defeat;
because God is my victory and He is here.
I'll hold on to Your promises :)

all i wanna do is praise You.

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 10:27:51 GMT

something that I've said that i will do: updating regularly (3 days or so)
I want to be a person with integrity so here i am. haha!

talking about integrity, i'm reminded of the challenge that i took up;
which is, make a commitment not to lie, distort the truth or even, exaggerate.
through this challenge, i come to realise how difficult it is to be a person of integrity.
however, I'm not going to give up when I face obstacles ahead.
"If God is for us, who can ever be against us?"

people have been telling me about the right attitude I should have.
yes indeed, attitude places a very important part in life.
it can be considered the stepping stone towards success or failure.
hence, i decided to change the way i look at school.
no more negative attitude ("school's boring", "waste of time"). be my witness! :D

tomorrow would be the last ut for strategic thinking skills.
I wanna do well for it. This time, not for myself but to glorify Your name.
I'm excitedddddddddddd! :)

Exactly three weeks time, semester will come to an end and it means changing of class.
it means new environment, new classmates, new facilitators.
but this time round, I'm not going to make the same mistake I've made yet again.
radical change;

more of You, less of me;

Fri, 18 Jul 2008 05:44:05 GMT

maybe I'm doing all this with my strength and not Your strength
that's why I failed badly and I'm afraid I can't get back to my feet anymore.
take control once again, will You?

my heart and my soul, I give You control...